Sorrow of Heart
The Twenty-First Chapter
IF YOU wish to make progress in virtue, live in the fear of the Lord,
do not look for too much freedom, discipline your senses, and shun
inane silliness. Sorrow opens the door to many a blessing which
dissoluteness usually destroys.
It is a wonder that any man who considers and meditates on his exiled
state and the many dangers to his soul, can ever be perfectly happy in
this life. Lighthearted and heedless of our defects, we do not feel the
real sorrows of our souls, but often indulge in empty laughter when we
have good reason to weep. No liberty is true and no joy is genuine unless
it is founded in the fear of the Lord and a good conscience.
Happy is the man who can throw off the weight of every care and
recollect himself in holy contrition. Happy is the man who casts from
him all that can stain or burden his conscience.
Fight like a man. Habit is overcome by habit. If you leave men alone,
they will leave you alone to do what you have to do. Do not busy
yourself about the affairs of others and do not become entangled in
the business of your superiors. Keep an eye primarily on yourself and
admonish yourself instead of your friends.
If you do not enjoy the favor of men, do not let it sadden you; but
consider it a serious matter if you do not conduct yourself as well or
as carefully as is becoming for a servant of God and a devout religious.
It is often better and safer for us to have few consolations in this life,
especially comforts of the body. Yet if we do not have divine consolation
or experience it rarely, it is our own fault because we seek no sorrow of
heart and do not forsake vain outward satisfaction.
Consider yourself unworthy of divine solace and deserving rather of much
tribulation. When a man is perfectly contrite, the whole world is bitter and
wearisome to him.
A good man always finds enough over which to mourn and weep; whether
he thinks of himself or of his neighbor he knows that no one lives here
without suffering, and the closer he examines himself the more he grieves.
The sins and vices in which we are so entangled that we can rarely apply
ourselves to the contemplation of heaven are matters for just sorrow and
I do not doubt that you would correct yourself more earnestly if you would
think more of an early death than of a long life. And if you pondered in your
heart the future pains of hell or of purgatory, I believe you would willingly
endure labor and trouble and would fear no hardship. But since these
thoughts never pierce the heart and since we are enamored of flattering
pleasure, we remain very cold and indifferent. Our wretched body complains
so easily because our soul is altogether too lifeless.
Pray humbly to the Lord, therefore, that He may give you the spirit of
contrition and say with the Prophet: “Feed me, Lord, with the bread of
mourning and give me to drink of tears in full measure.”6
6 Ps. 80:9.
The Imitation of Christ
by Thomas, à Kempis